I was just coming up with some type of explanation for one of my most recent pieces of art titled “Healing Energy”, and I realized something quite profound. Healing begins from within your soul.

This seems obvious, but let’s really think about it. How many times have I been in a down and out moment in my life and have run to the book store to find a book on the subject I was feeling less adequate about? LOTS! Actually I will usually buy several books on the same subject and begin to read one and then lose interest. Those books will sit on my shelf for years. And then one magical day I will catch a glimpse of one of those books and it will grab my attention. I will begin and finish the book and find great help within the pages.

Or, better yet, I remember on several occasions when I have hit hard times in my life when I have gone to a psychic or some type of spiritual healer. I can now say that I went to the healer in vain. I went to be fixed. ‘Show me what to do next, tell me what is wrong with me’, and I have found the healing work inadequate or just so-so. 

Why have these things happened to me? Why have I lost faith during these hard times in my life? Well, my answer to myself is this… I was not looking in the right places in order to be healed. I was looking outside of myself, looking for anybody to save me, to fix what was broken. And in all honesty, I was not accepting the healing that they bestowed upon me because I was not ready to be healed. Healing has to start deep in my soul. I have to accept the fact that something is broken and that I need help to fix it. I need to want to see the broken pieces, no matter how ugly they are. And I need to be willing and able to expose those. To work on those pieces in order to mend them. Once exposed, we can do a lot of self healing via books or other methods in private. And once we have tried that, then is the time to seek professional healing. But not until we are open and ready for healing can we be open and ready for help.

So, years after I bought those books, they were very helpful. The reason I believe this, is that I was not ready to listen when I first bought them. Years later I was more open, and had done some extensive self healing and could now except the messages the books were holding for me.

I have blamed spiritual practitioners for not giving me what I needed, or else not really knowing what I needed. Yet how could they know if I was not clear in what I wanted, and I was not open enough for them to do what they do best?

In the end, this piece of art that I created shows me that healing is a very personal process. There should be no blame anywhere, not even within myself. From healing comes personal growth and that is evolution my friends J